Out of Sight, Out of Mind

Fear is a force to be reckoned with in every human being. When fear is mutual between two parties it is a regressive force that leads to stagnation instead of growth. Fear of feelings and fear of voicing them will always be the strongest power in our existence. It's counterpart is love, friendship and acceptance. Which of the forces that will win over depends on which of the said forces that we feed. My biggest regrets in life will be the times when I let fear rule me and therefore lacked the courage to voice my feelings, to voice my love. The biggest crimes we make are usually the ones we inflict on ourselves. Sadly.
In our fear of our feelings, or our lack there of, or the lack of feelings in another concerning ourselves can lead to the most stupid of mistakes. But I suppose that the lesson learned is that it is better to have loved than to not have loved at all.

Photo: Jonas Norén

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2012

Now we write 2012. A new year with new opportunities and possibilities. And according to the Mayan calender we only have some months left to live. In that case we need to make the most of them I suppose. No matter if this planet is going under in eleven months or in a millenia we need to live in the now.

2011 was an eventful year for me. I saw parts of the world that I hadn't seen before (and thus fulfilled the gypsy's prophesy for me). I got new titles and new work. I got two great ideas that I will develop further in 2012. Dreams and goals should always be pursued.

2011 was also a year of love and friendship. I can carry great memories with me from the past year which hopefully will give me energy in this one. Where there is light there is also darkness and even though I walked out of it stronger doesn't mean that it didn't involve pain and lots of it. My best friend calls him the unmentionable.

This evening I cried. Finally .....

Cried over cowardly acts, words with double meaning, harsh remarks and bitchiness, words that should have been said and words that shouldn't have been said. Cried over that sometimes love isn't enough and over a broken heart that has yet to be fully mended.

But the light and the love in me prevails.


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Downton Abbey

Downton Abbey. My favourite pastime at the moment. I just love it!! This series created by ITV and written by Julian Fellowes has become a smash hit. As in every other English production we get quality and heaps of it. Great actors like Hugh Bonneville, Elizabeth McGovern and Maggie Smith, who could put almost any other actor to shame. The scenery with the magnificent mansion. The clothes that are spectacular and I feel the same about the style of the upper class as well as that of the servants.

And there are so many other things that are there for the taking. The political climate of the beginning of the 1900s. The role of women in society and how it started to change with the first world war. The upper class and the lower class. Upstairs and downstairs. Technical advancements. Fashion. The list can be made as long as my arm.

And to top it off, real life problems. Things we as an audience can relate to. Hardship as broken hearts and miscarriages. Death and deceit in those we thought were our friends and allies. Finally family, friendship and love and all the intricate emotions of joy and pain that all of these entail.

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Friendship

As I have said before friendship is the best accessory in the world. Two old fashion students by the sea reminiscing about the good, old days. It doesn't matter if it takes years between when we see each other, it still feels like it was yesterday. That is a sign of a true friendship.

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